I took a drive in the Rocky Mountains a few week ago and want to share photo's, yes, but also a small 'epiphany' I had as I surveyed some of the areas that were damaged by fire and flood over the last few years - here in Colorado~
I very much had my husband on my mind as I drove into the higher elevations : ) and of course it was bittersweet; having just had the 1.5 year anniversary of his death : (
As I sped along I began to notice the fire-scared and flood-scared areas. It was a sad site to see.
These 'pencil and tooth pick' trees standing in patches and looking so forlorn~
And in a melancholy and vulnerable moment; I felt like part of the scenery~ I'm sure Not uncommon after 35 years of marriage and loosing your guy, your heartbeat, - to maybe feel a little like a dead tree? Wouldn't you agree?
Here I was on a beautiful morning in the Mountains of Colorado, blue sky, warm sun, cruising with the moon roof open - with "no place to go and all day to get there" - Good music and a yummy coffee, and me, feeling like a dead tree. Wowzer. But I will say in my defense : J that I've been here many many times before and with the grace of God have grieved it through and risen above.
It IS a process and it just takes time. And lots of it.
But as I journeyed on, I started noticing something else; something more in the background and not so 'pronounced.' Signs of HOPE. Little green signs of hope!
And that got me thinking. Thinking about MY landscape. It's burned and it's scarred right now, no doubt, & reminded me of a line from a song by Twila Paris:
"...she hated to think about the past, almost as much as she hated to think about the future..."
Yea I know those words are a little extreme - but they came to me anyway. It's just so hard.
But friends, - - - those green trees kept flying by my window whispering hope and life.
I don't think I'm allowed (legally anyway : ) to write out these lyrics; so here is a link to the words of a song by Sara Groves titled "Less Like Scars" for you to read and listen if you chose.
While I may only see this:
I know my Creator, my Deliverer and the One who cares for me, sees this:
and hopefully, eventually, this : )
There is a scripture passage in the book of Jeremiah that says:
Jeremiah 29:11-1311 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected (good) end.
12 Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.
13 And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.
This reminds me that He has hope for me. Healing and restoration and plans for my life! And though my dreams for the future are different than they've ever been; I do still have dreams. : )
So I will watch my 'landscape' change in the coming years : )
and where will it lead, stretching out to the unknown?
Well, I shall see : ) LOL!
But I know it will be 'good' for me~
And I will continue to "look to the Hills from where comes my help!
My help comes from the Lord."
Here is what I see, when I think of Him!
Thanks for listening dear kind friends!
I just needed to talk~
May you have a wonderful new week ahead.
Hugs to you, Karen